Running Shoes Tomorrow
Posted on February 01 2010
Tomorrow will be the first official day of track and my last season in a Lynbrook uniform. Not that I don’t want it to come, but since after today almost all of the posts on here will be about running or have some running in them, I’m going to write about my other love in life; my girl.
What can I say about her?
It has been 5 amazing months and one wonderful day and I still get the same butterflies in my stomach that I got 5 months and 1 day ago. Every time she looks at me with those gorgeous eyes, kisses me with her soft lips, or whispers her sweet words into my ears, I fall in love with her all over again. In a sense we’ve gotten past the newness of the relationship by having gotten past our differences and knowing what to do and what not to do around each other; but at the same time all the magic is still there. Every day I spend with her is amazing as the first and the last, every kiss is as heartfelt as the one she mustered the courage to give me, and every time she says those three words I know for a fact that she means them.
Yesterday at her birthday party, as she walked across the room with a huge beautiful smile on her face, talking to all her best friends, it put an even bigger smile on my face, knowing that she was happy and that I in some way was able to make her wear that beautiful smile. I figured it all out the other day, I’m no longer scared to cease living for myself, now I just don’t want to stop living with her. Every day with her is truly wonderful, regardless of if I spend every minute of it with her or not a single second, I still wake up and fall asleep with her on my mind and in my heart.
Amazingly, it’s been 5 months and 1 day and I still couldn’t tell someone why I love her. But then again, maybe that just shows that I truly do. I don’t love her for something that she does, I love her for who she is. I love her for being the dork that goes to Petco with me, that makes Viveks at the Apple Store, that talks about refrigerators at best buy, that draws things on my phone for me, that plays Pokemon with me on her computer and thinks of dirty nicknames for all the Pokemon she catches.
Her Tia Linda said that Alanna is “never full of herself”, and that is the truly amazing thing about her, I mean how many girls are there as beautiful as her, that get into the best schools, that are good at sports, that have her smile, that are as polite and mature as her, and most of all as loving as her? She has every reason in the world to be full of herself and yet she isn’t. She still asks me “really?” every time I tell her she’s beautiful, and every time she asks me, I respond with the same three letter word and mean it with everything I have.
The songs we sing together, the laughs we share, and the places we go, we don’t do it because we’re lovers; we do it because she’s my lover and best friend at the same time. It’s the best feeling the world having the girl that kisses you throughout the day, texts you “good morning” and wishes you goodnight everyday to also be the girl you can joke around with and be yourself. That’s truly the reason why we’re meant to be, we just understand each other. We’re both dorks, and we’re both losers, but ever since August 30th, I’ve been the biggest winner in the world, and she’s my 1st place medal.
Usually after writing so much about running or anything else, I’m straining to find more words that flow well together, but with her it just comes so natural. I’ve only known her closely for 6 months really and yet I feel like I’ve known her a lifetime. We often wonder what would’ve happened if we had found each other earlier, and I’m sure it would have been just amazing as it is now, but the most amazing things is that I know whatever happens in the future, she’ll always have my heart in her hands and I never want it back.
There millions of words in the world, and yet even those three wonderful words still don’t do justice to how I feel. This isn’t love; it’s so much more. It’s something wonderful and natural, and it’s perfect. I’m not perfect, no one is, but together, we are perfect.
I love you Alanna. Thank you for an amazing five months and one day, I can’t wait until tomorrow because it’ll be another amazing day with you.
I’ll never be able to tell you just how much I love you because there aren’t any words strong enough for it.